Uncomfortable In My Own Clothes: Part 2
What Will Fit?
I have a finite number of train trips (or other modes of transit) to Yerevan. Though I have not attempted to count them, I was on one last week. As we pulled out of the Sasuntsi Davit station, where there had been a cloud burst just 20 minutes earlier, I saw more storms and falling rain in the distance. Welcome spring!
In only a few weeks’ time, the landscape had changed dramatically. Fields had been plowed, furrowed, planted and irrigated. Purple, blue, white and yellow wildflowers, interspersed with red poppies, lined the rail bed and filled fallow tracts of land. A sweet scent momentarily filled the car as we passed trees with large clusters of white flowers, even as their pedals gently make their way to the ground. The snow on all but the highest mountains had disappeared and nearly everything was green. This lushness doesn’t last long and I was happy not to have missed this beautiful albeit brief scene.
I had been in this position before – returning from a mid-service trip to the US; the first one was over a year ago. Witnessing yet another milestone in my family’s life, I attended the commencement ceremony of my younger son, marking his completion of medical school.
Returning to Armenia this time was a wholly different experience. Like last year, I feel I don’t belong in either place, although I am able to function in both. Unlike last year, the end of my work and service in Armenia is palpable.
This weekend was spent updating my resume, searching for employment, sorting/disposing of papers, a little packing, reading blog posts by my PCV cohort, saying goodbye to friends and writing final reports.
In only 47 days, I will face the “great unknown” as this chapter of my life ends. Few of the clothes I brought with me and had altered will return. They served me well but are worn out or needed by other PCVs.
In the next chapter, yet to be written, there will be a new routine in a new location with opportunities and experiences I cannot now imagine; and a rebirth necessitating alterations of a different kind altogether.